i wish...

there are so many things i wish...

right now i wish, it was something OTHER than THIS... pretty much anything...

and another thing; i wish i could go back and party like it it 1999, and it really would be 1999. i think there are some things i would do different, experiences i would embrace a bit more tightly, warning signs i would notice, gut feelings i might follow, dreams i would explore.

"it is what it is" they say anyway... but what it is, kind of sucks.